Hung out with the girls again! This time was with alex. Initially, we were supposed to meet at eleven, but I just couldn't for the love of god, get myself out of bed, so I told them to meet at twelve instead. And well, I was still late. Hahah.

We just shopped around vivo at the usual stores, f21, topshop, PULL AND BEAR and such. Omg, shopping with alex is like living in the stone age. After I had walked around the store like twice, she finally picked0 some clothes to try on. Unable to tolerate her immensely slow movements, oi and I went to pull and bear. And AFTER we walked around pull and bear once and I had tried on some jeans, did she FINALLY come over with her two purchases. Honestly, life with her is like walking backwards. Your life will go in rewind one day.

I bought a top from pull and bear again. Hahah yes twin, I really think I'm going crazy. And I think the zara gladiator sandals are really strangely nice! But the topshop crossover ones are even nicer. I need money money money.

Lunch at teh white dog cafe was alright, if only the waitress didn't mix up my order and delay the whole process, resulting in me having to eat a cold glazed salmon fillet. Of course, I could be the consumer bitch and demand compensation but seeing how panicked she was, I decided to be nice.

Dessert at marche with compliments from the prawn. Thanks alot dearie:)))).

xiaoan -- [noun]: A person who falls into an outhouse and dies 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

I finally met up with simeng and oi. Music and lyrics was a fun show, with hugh grant stammering and stuttering, batting his lashes incessantly as he jerked his hips singing about his heart going pop. Along with the corny 80's video and all the frankie says relax jokes (whose tshirt i'm dying to get), it was a very adorable show to watch in all.

I think I was the only one is the theatre laughing at the frankie says relax jokes. I suppose I'm the only idiot stuck in an age before she was born or something. I mean, who else knows about Frankie goes to Hollywood and the controversial song Relax, apprently about anal sex huh.

CONGRATULATIONS LIESEL ON GETTING ACCEPTED INTO NYU.
omg it's NYU for god's sake. Haha I'm so happy it's as if I had been accepted.

You know twin, about that quote you had? The one about the girl feeling scared because she thinks she treasures her friends more than they treasure her? I think it's so true. I'm not being neurotic or narcissitic or anything, but sometimes I feel that I'm so dispensible and disposable to everyone around me. And they say what are friends for? Really what are they for? And they say family is all that matters. But is there anything that really matters? We are all nothingness. So aren't relationships all nothingness?

I don't have a friend in the world. I don't have family. It's all just fleeting people who I've met and made certain connections with. Are those what they call friends and family? The people I can so called count on? I can't even name a single one then. It's not like I have been a hermit all my life, but I suppose I am a social hermit in this certain way.

My head hurts. More than ever.

You Are 75% Non Conformist

You are a pretty serious non conformist. You live a life hardly anyone understands. And while some may call you a freak, you're happy with who you are.

Are You a Nonconformist?

You Are More Cutthroat Than You Think

Yes, you do have that killer instinct lurking in you. And while you may not be actually cutting throats anytime soon... You certainly don't mind clawing your way to the top.

Are You Cutthroat?

You Are Running on 73% Adrenaline

Your Adrenaline Level: Borderline Dangerous You're running around so fast, you don't realize how quickly life is passing you by. While you may be getting a lot done, you're on the go lifestyle is probably wearing you out.

Are You Running on Adrenaline?

You Are a Pessimist

If things are going good, you can always imagine how they will turn for the worse. And when things do happen to be bad, life is like a dark pit you can't crawl out of. One bad moment can ruin your day, and you think one bad week can ruin your life. Things are much better than they seem. Just take time to see everything that's going right.

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

Went to sign up at a job agency with daph and aud today. Before that, as daphy was going to be late, I decided to make a trip to the bank to open a new account. These errands really make me feel so adult. Like only adults search for jobs and go to banks as part of their daily routines, but when I think about it. I'm already nineteen which is very near twenty and this afterthought really scares the hell out of me.

Matt was over at our house when i got back so we hung out for a while as he waited for my bro to bathe and get changed. Ahh carefreee life of the unemployed.

Status: Officially unemployed

A really funny customer came today, I think he was french. While Tijah went to get stuff for him in the stock rom he asked me, "Didn't this section used to be half girls and half boys? Now it's all girls." So I replied" We just changed the display to all girls." To which he said rather ludicrously " Well that's not very fair. Is that all you have for boys? I feel offended. The girls are dominating the world!" HAhHahahah.

I'm going to miss these funny foreign customers and their hilarious dialogues when I stop work on monday. I'm going to miss the too-cute kids that even I a childhater would like. I'm going to miss all the eyecandy customers or passerbys. I'm going to miss snacking on chocolates and biscuits with serping and tijah. I'm going to miss ranking guys with serps and buying Macs for everyone using my expired student status. I am a little reluctant to leave as I'm going to leave such a nice and fun place behind. But I really need money and sales is getting a bit boring.

THE RAPTURE IS COMING
Omg. leo and liesel i love you guys
for going with me to see them((((((((:

Bless Revolver for running an article on HIM, even if it was just one pathetic page with an uber hot picture of ville in it. In the interview, Ville said that a new album will be coming out, very much unlike the poppish Dark Light one. Thank goodness. He said that "most people would probably hate it", but I have high hopes for it anyway!

I wish singapore had such music magazine, but I suppose it's really hard to run such a publications with such a dead music scene around. I mean, what bands are there to feature articles on? Most bands around are just imitations or copies of American bands. There seems to be no original sounds or anything. I'm sorry for being such a harsh critic when I myself am a music retard, but honestly. When electrico said they werre going to prove that local music doesn't suck, I was skeptical. After hearing a few songs, I rest my case.

Bought Nylon and Yen mag. I wanted to get Vogue UK as katem. was on the cover but it was just too damn expensive. Sigh. I need money. Seriously.

I feel so ugly and stupid

I need to lie down
before i start sinking again.

I've been waiting my whole life for you
and now you're just slipping away.

Someone please stop this great spending force known as xiaoan.

I spent 8 bucks on a Godiva drink which was absolutely delicious. But now I know why they named it Dark Chocolate Decadence. After the first 3/4 cup of rich chocolate ice taking you to heaven, you start feeling a little sick. Plus, I spent another 40 bucks on shoes at topshop. How am I ever going to save enough money t get my laptop:((((.

Zouk last night with steph, nic and his friend was pretty alright. The dj was waaaaay better, I mean he remixed some GnR and Blur songs which ups his cred ALOT for me. Most of the time was funk, which is much better than rnb in my opinion. Rnb is tolerable, but when the same songs are played in just different sequence, it gets fucking boring. Yesterday was an ugly day. I was ugly. Steph felt ugly. The crowd was ugly. Except one godcousin lookalike. Please note that lookalike means imitation, which in turn means a lower standard of the original.

Look at what alex emailed me:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIK AND KY!!!

The day just got curiouser and curiouser. I was on my way to work in the midmorning, just routinely daydreaming while having the spinto band or HIM blasting into my ears when my phone rang (well belted out vampire heart actually but anyway). My supervisor called me to check if I knew I had work today and I was like "huh yah i know I'm on my way". But it turns out my manager had changed my roster to full shift when I thought it was still at 12-6 shift. Imagine how late I was.

At work, while standing around, I went to consult Mr Guardian fortune cookie and he told me "Your destiny is changing, be careful of sexual appeal". Which means, hot and sexy guys and gals BEGONE! Hahah. But it's not like I'm some hunk or babe magnet, more likely I'm the psych ward escapee magnet.

Later in the afternnon, Lik dropped by for god knows what and my supervisor thought he was my boyfriend and let me off early! I was like HUH no he is my classmate, but she just kept chasing me away. Lik, you cost me thirteen bucks I tell you.

While having dinner at lido, serp and I were like looking at this guy who was like a 9.0! HAhah. Lucky day huh. But as we went to buy food, I noticed the group of girls he was with was like pointing and staring at us, so I asked serp if they were her friends, and well, no guesses here, they weren't. So she was like "huh, I stare at your boyfriend cuz he is goodlooking isn't that good". And with that I replied " Haha yah, if she was pretty we would be staring at her too." LOL.

I have decided to apply to FASS. Shenton way is really not my world and I would probably be stumbling and slipping off the corporate ladder half the time. So when I become a starving unemployed liberal arts grad, Lik please don't forget you said you would support me and give me a $5000 salary position in your law firm as an editor for your contracts.

Ms Azlin's wedding today! It was really cool as this is my like only second wedding I've been to, so I was quite excited. Haha. I really liked the setting they made which made them look like some malay royalty. Plus it was pretty great meeting all my classmates again. I shall put up the photos after I've managed to grab them off everyone else. Haha.

Went to starbucks at holland V with peiyi, huiling, eeli, daph, yuko and aud. It seems most are us are stuck in the same rut, to take fass or biz. Fass really seems like a dead end here in singapore. As my sis was telling me, in america they really value LA students, but in sg it's not really the case. For example, in the US thhey would rather pick an A LA student over a B business grad. But here, a B business grad would have a greater oppurtunity. This is really hurting my head.

eeli` Your dwelling places says:
i wish i was overseas. cos seriously i think sg is too small, and too rigid and materialistic for me actually
takeyourhandinmine says:
YAH thats why
eeli` Your dwelling places says:
let's go overseas! haha self-imposed exile

|k^Kh|An (liver) says:
if u wanna be rich, biz
l|k^Kh|An (liver) says:
if u wanna scrape out a living persuing the craft of your dreams
l|k^Kh|An (liver) says:
choose wadever it is in fass lor

Oh no, what should I do what should I do what should I do? I'm tired of living out of a cardboard box with a penance for a bank account, but Shenton way is just not my world. It's not that I'm an advocate for white superiority, but the cheesy phrase of America being the land of oppurtunity and dreams just seems so tangible all of a sudden.

What exactly may I ask, is the point and purpose of open houses? All aud and I did was walk around, grab some booklets to add to the weight of the door gift bags we were lugging around and eavesdropping on explanations to other eager people who seem to have a load of questions to bombard the facilitators with.

We soon gave up and was heading off to holland v for coffee, when we missed our busstop. So we ended up at starbucks near borders, loitered in kino then off home.

Such a hot and lazy day it is. Im contemplating whether I should apply for my university now. I really wanted fass but almost everyone is telling me how easy it is to get and that it really isn't worth getting into. Oh the confusion))):

It was all just reckless fun.

Hahah today was pretty boring at work. Had a more handsome version of nakata customer which kinda made our day heehee. Irene was telling me loewe is lv's second line and I didn't really believe because their stuff really doesnt look marc jacob-sy. So when I went back to ask my mum she was like "HUH NO. Loewe is a spanish brand and lv is french! Omg. But don't expose your manager or later she bully you." HAHHAHA

stole from kelly...

How Azn are You?

[x] Are you Asian in the first place?
[x] Were you born in an Asian country?
[x] Can you use chopsticks?
[x] Have you taken Vietnamese/Chinese/Korean/Japanese/LAO,etc at school as a kid?
[x] Can you speak an Asian language?
[ ] Is your favorite subject math/science? (was...'til I met calc and physics.)
[ ] Do you eat rice almost every single day/or alot?
[x] Did/Do you spike/highlight your hair?
[x] Do you get at least a 3.0 GPA?
Score: 7/9

Section 2:
[ ] Do you listen to Asian music?
[x] Have you watched Asian movies?
[ ] Can you rave?
[ ] Are you a master at DDR?
[ ] Do you drink pearl milk tea or bubble tea?
[ ] Can you play CS, Starcraft, Warcraft, Diablo, etc?
[ ] Have you played the violin/piano?
[ ] Do your parents beat you if you get bad grades?
[x] Are you going/taking/took any honors/AP classes?
[ ] Do you own a mazda/saturn?
[ ] Do you/your parents drive an Asian made car?
Score: 2/11

Section 3:
[ ] Are you or were you once a fob? (HUH?!)
[ ] Is your last name Park, Lee, Chang, Phanna, Wang, Wong, Kim, Tang, Chow, or Yu?
[x] Have you dated/[want] to date Asian boys/girls?
[ ] Have you designed a website before?
[ ] Does your SNS/e-mail have/had the words: AzN, gurl, boy, sweet, cute, hot, dragon, babe, angel, lil, princess, Xx...xX, oO..,Oo, etc?
[ ] Do you have both an Asian and an English name?
[x] Do you take off your shoes before entering someone's house?
[ ] Do you know the song "Got Rice"?
[x] anime?
[ ] Do you listen to trance?
Score: 3/10

Section 4:
[x] Have you eaten dim sum/dumplings before?
[ ] Are your parents fobs?(WTF IS A FOB)
[x] Is the mall your hang out place?
[ x] Do you think you're short?
[ x] do you have tons of cousins/siblings/uncles/aunts/etc?
[ ] Can you twirl a pencil between your fingers?
[ ] Have you ever solved a rubik's cube?
[x] Do you read manga?
[ ] Do you/your parents save ketchup packets/napkins/etc from restaurants for later use?
[x] Do you have ASiAN Pride?
Score: 6/10

Section 5:
[ ] Are you a very good artist?
[ ] Do you speak your Asian language with your friends?
[ ] Do your relatives own a restaurant/market/Nail salon in an Asian community?
[ ] Do you slurp soup?
[ ] Do YoU tYpE lIkE tHiS aLoT?
[x] Have you visited your home country at least twice? (<3) [ ] does your house smell like incense once in a while? [x] Do you have/had glasses or braces? [x] Do you like to read? [ x] Do you NOT have an allowance?
Score: 4/10

total:22/50===> 44% what... how can i be less asian than kelly who is an american?!?!

Serping and I should stop going to pulland bear
or we will buy their whole shop soon.

ADDICTED TO YOU.

Hung out with huey and ox yesterday which was really great. I hadn't seen them for ages. Ben & jerry's was a big delicious ripoff, pet safari is like a pet zoo with depressed puppies and superdog should seriously change their name to spacedogs as it sounds cuter.

Zouk at night with steph alex darren and his friends. I was in an uber bored mood so I didn't really feel the hype. Alex only got high after she took a drag from a cig which was really funny because she really started getting a little crazy. I had to sort of babysit her but at least she was huggable! haha I think i became crook for the night. There were alot of weird guys yesterday, ither that or it was just that section of the dance floor. Over at zouk, things were more happening. A fat white man in gold tights was dj-ing and dancing with this really hot girl. Unfortunately they were playing trance which gets really monotonous so we went back to phuture after awhile.

Oh yes and the really amusing thing was that we met that senior student councillor nigel's twin! He like came over to dance with us but I really didnt see his face cuz alex was clinging on to me, so when the music and everything stopped I was like "hey this guy looks like nigel" steph.
steph:yah yah i think so too
alex:huh
me:don't you think he looks like nigel
alex: OMG HE LOOKS LIKE NIGEL IS HE NIGEL?!?!?
the guy:omg you guys are from vj?nigel is my brother.
Got a ride from him home not long after. I suppose things were alittle better because Mr C wasnt there>.<

HAHAHAHAH. pictures added to nightout3.no night pictures though, i left my cam in my bag which was in the baggage counter

I'm not sure to be happy or sad. I'm contented with my results but not exactly estatic about it. Oh well, it's just that in a school oand class where most people are getting 3 or 4 As, getting just one makes me feel so stupid and pathetic. I guess I'm just a little sore about GP but then again, I've always known myself to be more of the creative writer than a journalist type, so it's not my fault it's just the bloody system. HAHAH.

:) ? :( ? =====> :|


p.s. more pictures up in nightout3 album

OH MY FUCKING GOD
IT'S TMR
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